Life’s Full Of Uncertainties!
I grew up looking at my mom, a full-time housewife, rushing here and there, cooking and performing household chores, and seeing how tired my mom was at the end of the day, I told myself, the last thing I want to do is to become a housewife. I don’t mind having a job that requires me to work till late at night and reporting to unreasonable bosses..as long as it is not washing the dishes and mopping the floor, I’m fine with it. I still remember how I discussed this issue with some of my friends, and how confidently I told them..”Me? A housewife? What a joke! I’m not going to be a housewife. I rather work than to stay at home! While saying those lines, my eyes were admiring my nicely manicured fingernails…ooh..how nice they were…long and neatly polished.
There are a few reasons why I disdain the idea of being a housewife. I love shopping and buying clothes. Without a job, that would not be possible. I will not have the chance of parading in my newly acquired shopping loot if I’m to just sit around at home. Without work, I’ll feel so useless and with that much time on hand, what can I do to make myself worthy?
I guess I’ll have to swallow my words and wallow in self pity now. I am officially a housewife. Not voluntarily, but somewhat a few turn of circumstances which resulted in me having to stay at home and become a housewife. Being out of job for a good 8 months and residing in a foreign country with family members far away and few friends around, is enough to drive be crazy. Last week, I was having bad mood swings, easily agitated with very minor things (yes, my hubby was the victim of my frustrations), I thought about a lot of things. I kept asking myself…”am I not trying hard enough in looking for a job?” or “have I been too choosy with the jobs available?” and so on and so forth. All these questions were flying around in my head. NO! The answer is NO. I have been very consistent in writing-in to all the prospective companies. I have been checking out the classifieds regularly. I have also registered myself in almost all the recruitment agencies in Abu Dhabi. So, what actually went wrong? The economy is recovering slowly and I hope that I’ll eventually find myself a job and no longer hold the “housewife” status.
Instead of wallowing in self pity, I have decided to make good use of the time I have now to brush up on my culinary skills. Being an abominable cook myself, I am determined to sharpen my culinary skills and who knows..I might discover a new hidden talent in me…
